obsessed again~

i kind of found out the rough draft for Midnight Sun, the 5th book of The Twilight Saga, based on Edward's version.

this is the link:

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/midnightsun_partial_draft4.pdf

any Twilight Fans can explore, and wow.. Midnight Sun is so cool! ha ha... i can consider it the best addition of the whole Twilight Series, no thought the story is back to the 1st book.

it's so nice that i keep rereading and rereading it. i never get bored.

ok, this post is just to tell you guys the link to this heavenly draft... go check it out!! its cool

disapointment~

i woke up early today, 8am to take a bath and get prepared for my tuition due 9am today. so i quickly got Savy, my maid to make my breakfast for me. i finished eating at 9am sharp. and i got on Facebook, Blogger, Wikipedia and Stephenie Meyer - exploring or browsing - while waiting for my teacher, Ms Pong.

but sadly i got her message at about 10am, and found out that she overslept. so, the class will not get on today. that's my teacher. late and oversleep. often. ha ha, its not a good habit but i like her. she teaches me well, despite the inaccuracy of time. she is the one who rescued me when my result was as bad as overdue fish, when i gave up hope for getting good results such as 1st in class and straight As for my UPSR.

she steered me back in time, for me to regain my confidence in studying. my result really shot up at a surprising pace last year, when i shot from the 131st in school ( 2008 ranking ) to the top 50 in my school ( last year ranking ). and unexpectedly i can actually get straight As for my UPSR.

but right now, i am in 1 Gemilang, said as the express class in my school. i've never felt this before. last year, i can win everyone in my class by my results even if i din't study and took my exams easily. now, in Gemilang, i suddenly felt there are more top students to fight with. i was the top in my class last year but now?? i feel like i am only average.

i am worrying. worried that i am going to fail, fail getting good rankings in my class. i may not be the last one in class, but i hope i can be the 1st, just like everyone else.

i am going to get this done, no matter what...

all souls day (CHINGMING)~

yesterday was the all souls day, pronounced Ching-Ming in Chinese. i visited my deceased Great-grandparents and my Grandpa. we went to clean their graves, just like very other year. i went into the car groggily at around 6am. i am getting used to wake up a bit later then last year, as i am having afternoon classes now. so, there's nothing much to say about it, cause its not something extremely special. so, i will not write it here, those who are interested can use your imaginations, to imagine what you imagine. haha, knock yourselves out!!

today i went to visit my my deceased Uncle Ray. my 4th uncle, my mum's 4th brother and my grandparents. let me be clear with this, i visited the father of my mum and the parents of my mum's father. today, i visited my dad's parents. i don't know them. they were already deceased a long time before i was born. but i know my mum's father, my loving grandpa who pampered me so much when he was alive. my best grandpa in the world. and of course i remember my Uncle Ray. he's the last one to go, and i literally teared a little, without the others noticing.

well, nothing more. i wanna enjoy my Maggi Mee. i've skipped dinner today, cause i was sleeping!! * pai seh*

whoof shit 1more B~

yes. i told you guys i will come back with my Sivik result. and dang it, i got another B added to my stupid result record. yes. i got B for my Sivik, which is not an estimated thing to happen. but, even if i feel uneasy about it, i guess i'd also just have to grind my teeth and go on, moving forward. i've already uninstall all my online games, like CDO, SA and such. i am now aiming for nothing other than getting much better results the next term. so, any of you please don't ask me about playing now. i may get back to play, but please give me somemore time. when the time comes, i will return to the games world. the day i get straight As, that'll be the day i can relax. please wait for me!! xD

my stupid results~

guys, so sorry, i have to admit i have not been quite active this few days. the reason is because i am too busy being sad and worried about my 1st term result. as told before, the examinations were hard, to me that is. it seemed that i am getting all my results this week. i am still lacking Sivik & the real result for Geography ( cause we only estimated ).

this is my result:

BM ~ 70% ~ B

BI ~ 90% ~ A

BC ~ 62% ~ C

SEJ ~ 70% ~ B

GEO ~ 75% ~ B

SC ~ 94% ~ A

MATH ~ 97% ~ A

MORAL ~ 84% ~ A

SENI ~ 80% ~ A

KH ~ 55% ~ C

this is my result. bad enough huh? i've never survived more than a C before, since that day i got my report card for the 1st time of my Primary 6. you can tell that i am worst in BC and KH. well, as told, i hate Chinese, and i am thinking about dropping out of it, if it affects my result. and as for KH, i gotta admit i've never been good in it since Primary 4. i never got an A for that. but i still know, now i am Secondary, and i have to start taking things seriously. last year, i can still get straight As for my UPSR without even studying ( well, actually i haven't held a book to study at home for my last 12 years ). but now? no more relaxing. after my high results for my last year's study and my UPSR, i know i can't endure getting worse now. even if it's not my parents' hope, i hope that myself. i wanna keep up my standard. i don't wanna worsen. that's why i've quited all my online games now, and for the 1st time i'd try to study - at home - by myself. the feeling sucks, it feels like having to learn all those you've already known again and again, never seeming to end. BUT, i have to force myself to do it, cause i absolutely know that i will get high marks IF I KNOW WHAT I AM STUDYING. my marks are low, which means i am not geared. i am not stuffed full. i have FLAWS. i have 5 As, 3 Bs and 2 Cs!! can you see it? 2 Cs!! shit. i am shit. C is lower than average and i got two. maybe i am really a pack of shit.

and i will be back tonight, or tomorrow, to announce my last subject's result..