obsessed again~

i kind of found out the rough draft for Midnight Sun, the 5th book of The Twilight Saga, based on Edward's version.

this is the link:

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/midnightsun_partial_draft4.pdf

any Twilight Fans can explore, and wow.. Midnight Sun is so cool! ha ha... i can consider it the best addition of the whole Twilight Series, no thought the story is back to the 1st book.

it's so nice that i keep rereading and rereading it. i never get bored.

ok, this post is just to tell you guys the link to this heavenly draft... go check it out!! its cool

disapointment~

i woke up early today, 8am to take a bath and get prepared for my tuition due 9am today. so i quickly got Savy, my maid to make my breakfast for me. i finished eating at 9am sharp. and i got on Facebook, Blogger, Wikipedia and Stephenie Meyer - exploring or browsing - while waiting for my teacher, Ms Pong.

but sadly i got her message at about 10am, and found out that she overslept. so, the class will not get on today. that's my teacher. late and oversleep. often. ha ha, its not a good habit but i like her. she teaches me well, despite the inaccuracy of time. she is the one who rescued me when my result was as bad as overdue fish, when i gave up hope for getting good results such as 1st in class and straight As for my UPSR.

she steered me back in time, for me to regain my confidence in studying. my result really shot up at a surprising pace last year, when i shot from the 131st in school ( 2008 ranking ) to the top 50 in my school ( last year ranking ). and unexpectedly i can actually get straight As for my UPSR.

but right now, i am in 1 Gemilang, said as the express class in my school. i've never felt this before. last year, i can win everyone in my class by my results even if i din't study and took my exams easily. now, in Gemilang, i suddenly felt there are more top students to fight with. i was the top in my class last year but now?? i feel like i am only average.

i am worrying. worried that i am going to fail, fail getting good rankings in my class. i may not be the last one in class, but i hope i can be the 1st, just like everyone else.

i am going to get this done, no matter what...

all souls day (CHINGMING)~

yesterday was the all souls day, pronounced Ching-Ming in Chinese. i visited my deceased Great-grandparents and my Grandpa. we went to clean their graves, just like very other year. i went into the car groggily at around 6am. i am getting used to wake up a bit later then last year, as i am having afternoon classes now. so, there's nothing much to say about it, cause its not something extremely special. so, i will not write it here, those who are interested can use your imaginations, to imagine what you imagine. haha, knock yourselves out!!

today i went to visit my my deceased Uncle Ray. my 4th uncle, my mum's 4th brother and my grandparents. let me be clear with this, i visited the father of my mum and the parents of my mum's father. today, i visited my dad's parents. i don't know them. they were already deceased a long time before i was born. but i know my mum's father, my loving grandpa who pampered me so much when he was alive. my best grandpa in the world. and of course i remember my Uncle Ray. he's the last one to go, and i literally teared a little, without the others noticing.

well, nothing more. i wanna enjoy my Maggi Mee. i've skipped dinner today, cause i was sleeping!! * pai seh*

whoof shit 1more B~

yes. i told you guys i will come back with my Sivik result. and dang it, i got another B added to my stupid result record. yes. i got B for my Sivik, which is not an estimated thing to happen. but, even if i feel uneasy about it, i guess i'd also just have to grind my teeth and go on, moving forward. i've already uninstall all my online games, like CDO, SA and such. i am now aiming for nothing other than getting much better results the next term. so, any of you please don't ask me about playing now. i may get back to play, but please give me somemore time. when the time comes, i will return to the games world. the day i get straight As, that'll be the day i can relax. please wait for me!! xD

my stupid results~

guys, so sorry, i have to admit i have not been quite active this few days. the reason is because i am too busy being sad and worried about my 1st term result. as told before, the examinations were hard, to me that is. it seemed that i am getting all my results this week. i am still lacking Sivik & the real result for Geography ( cause we only estimated ).

this is my result:

BM ~ 70% ~ B

BI ~ 90% ~ A

BC ~ 62% ~ C

SEJ ~ 70% ~ B

GEO ~ 75% ~ B

SC ~ 94% ~ A

MATH ~ 97% ~ A

MORAL ~ 84% ~ A

SENI ~ 80% ~ A

KH ~ 55% ~ C

this is my result. bad enough huh? i've never survived more than a C before, since that day i got my report card for the 1st time of my Primary 6. you can tell that i am worst in BC and KH. well, as told, i hate Chinese, and i am thinking about dropping out of it, if it affects my result. and as for KH, i gotta admit i've never been good in it since Primary 4. i never got an A for that. but i still know, now i am Secondary, and i have to start taking things seriously. last year, i can still get straight As for my UPSR without even studying ( well, actually i haven't held a book to study at home for my last 12 years ). but now? no more relaxing. after my high results for my last year's study and my UPSR, i know i can't endure getting worse now. even if it's not my parents' hope, i hope that myself. i wanna keep up my standard. i don't wanna worsen. that's why i've quited all my online games now, and for the 1st time i'd try to study - at home - by myself. the feeling sucks, it feels like having to learn all those you've already known again and again, never seeming to end. BUT, i have to force myself to do it, cause i absolutely know that i will get high marks IF I KNOW WHAT I AM STUDYING. my marks are low, which means i am not geared. i am not stuffed full. i have FLAWS. i have 5 As, 3 Bs and 2 Cs!! can you see it? 2 Cs!! shit. i am shit. C is lower than average and i got two. maybe i am really a pack of shit.

and i will be back tonight, or tomorrow, to announce my last subject's result..

mum's birthday~

yesterday, March 20th was my mum's birthday. well, it wasn't so celebrating, cause no one held a party for her, so at night, we bought three pieces of cakes just to celebrate among ourselves.

well, yesterday was surprisingly my happiest day. like i am more happier than the birthday girl, my mum. yesterday, after my piano, my mum brought me to Ampang Point. She wanted to buy some bedsheets that she heard was on promotion at a shop there.

when we were at the ground floor, i saw something i loved for my life. a bookfair conducted by the Popular bookstore. all the books there were discounted. but mum says we should get back later, cause she wants to get her bedsheets first. mum bought two big bags of it. and I WAS TO CARRY IT! hahax, kidding, we divided it among us, and carried them downstairs to the bookshop. before that, when we were taking the escalator, i saw the book i wanted so much, Eclipse. i recognized it at once when i saw the cover even from a few levels above.

when we got downstairs, mum bought me that book. is was on a promotion of 20% discount. i was so happy! at last i have my twilight series completed!

when we got home, we met some of our relatives, they were here to visit and by the way give out some invitation cards to a wedding dinner. i don't really know who it is, just i think he's my cousin brother.

at night, after my tuition, we had a dinner together at a restaurant - Keong Kee. we are the regular customers there.

after the dinner, mum said that my phone has problems, so she wanted to buy me a new phone. they brought me to a Tesco at Ampang. i chose a Sony Ericsson W705. and when they are paying for it, i went into the Popular bookstore branch at the other side of the mall. and guess what? i found the complete collection of The Saga Of Darren Shan!! i was incomplete by four books, and now, that collection is completed too!! my mum paid for them.

yesterday was my favorite and happiest day. completing my two favorite book collection was one reason, getting a new phone was another, and the best was that i got to be around books, nothing but books, at a bookstore 2 times a day!!

dad, if you see this post, i'm sure you'll say this:

"see how your mum treat you, better thank her"

and even if you never see this, i'll still have to say, "love you mum"

heyz... public apology ~

guys, this is an apology to those who often browse my blog. i got some complaints from my friends that my posts are long, and specifically in English.

well, i am here to say sorry. cause i am used to read long stories and all those, so that makes me Write long posts naturally. and as for the language thing, well, i really can't help it. i mean like if i really wanna write my blog in Chinese, i can die in front of you right now.

i have no patience for the forming of even 1 chinese word. and to think if i wanna write a long post, how long should i write it? and my typing in English is faster than Chinese a thousand billion times.

i'm so sorry about that. but i'd be working it, i'll try to puch in some chinese language posts, and of course try not to be so long-breathed.

anyway, if you have any comments or complaints, you could always tell me by commenting. and i will surely work on it.

everyone knows~

everyone knows i hate Chinese. Everyone. all my friends, even my family members. and yet i am born in Malaysia. a country which requires the knowledge of Malay, Chinese and absolutely English. Chinese must know Chinese, Mandarin and of course better if one knows other languages. i, a little different from my other class/school mates, hate Chinese a lot. yes, i love English. like i love books. lolz. my friends keep telling me how English is a nuisance to them and i could actually say the same for the language they prefer ~ Chinese. the language that can put me in hell.

i am better in English and Malay. and i guess i can communicate with people in English and Malay with confidence. as for Chinese, i can only speak kinda well. written? oh no, i am shit in that. that last Chinese exam has proven me right. such easy questions - what my friends say - and i can make a B out of it. and please take note, it is just 8 marks past B. 68%. i am really a noob in Chinese. i just cant understand why you guys like it so much. i can get giddy when i see the troublesome Chinese words. they look nice, stylish, but its just so TROUBLESOME!!

hahaz... i still think ABCs are the better choice for me. i've been educated English and Malay since the day i opened my eyes. my parents speak to me in English, while my old maid - from Indonesia - speaks to me in Malay. and i'd only started to HEAR mandarin when i started primary. ( cause my kindie is supposed to teach English )

but it's alright, i am now in a Malay school, no forces to be good in Chinese. it's just a subject & language i learn for that little bit of my benefit. and i am absolutely not giving myself too high hopes for that. i can get a headache for that move.

lolz, but i know, you guys like Chinese as much as i love English.

it's the same. i am always asking why you don't like English while you ask me why i hate Chinese.

different points of view i guess.. well, it's ok, we have the freedom to choose. lolz.

Crap. i'm so sorry ~

last night, i hit the sack at about 2:45am, midnight. this is not the point, cause it's normal for me to stay up so late.. xD

the point is, i was up, reading again.

my schedule yesterday.

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9am+ ~ 10am+ went to school for some business.

10am+ ~ 4pm+ reading

4pm+ ~ 7pm+ friend Yeong Jing and cousin Germain visited

7pm+ ~ 2:45am reading

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from what we see, i have been reading for long hours, non-stop everyday. whenever i looked up from my book, i always feel a little dizzy. i think the long hours of reading is affecting my eyesight. I've loved reading from like when i knew how to read. maybe i should be 7 yrs old then.

i am a little short sighted here, not to say very serious, and i need not wear my specs most of the time, and thinking about it, i'd only wear it when i am copying things from the whiteboard, and it was not required since the last month. i can still see quite clearly. my dad is shortsighted too. he'd always told me to take good care of my eyes, to maintain the good eyesight. and everytime he put his head around my door, telling me to rest after a short while of reading, i said ok, but exactly when he went off, i started reading again.

yesterday mum came home planning to cook dinner. i went down in time to tell her that i am kinda tired and i am going to turn in early. i went upstairs, but instead of sleeping, i came to reading. i guess i heard my Ah-Heong-Biu-Yee, my mum's cousin sister and her husband came to our house. they where coming here to chat more often now.

at about 1am, i heard them coming home. mum came in and asked me when did i wake up. i felt a gush of guilt when she asked me that. but i lied that i woke at about 12am and can't get back to sleep. she believed me. no doubts about that. my parents believe every word i say. i really felt bad.

my parents have been telling me not to be too obsessed with anything, no matter it's schooling, reading, working or playing. something good will turn bad when it becomes a need that you can't deny. just like drugs, something that can help with medical actions but some people just want them cause they can't live without it. my dad put it that way and i think its right.

i am never obsessed with anything except for reading. playing, schooling, Tv and computers can't get the better of me. only reading. its the only thing in the entire world that can get me off the clock. i like writing too, and that's part of why am i blogging here.

my dad seemed unhappy when he sees me holding a book everywhere i went. i can see the unpleasant color on his face. but he din't show it. his tone while speaking to me gave him away anyway. i know my dad. and i know at once he is very annoyed.

my dad and mum knows that reading is my life. they always threaten to tear up my books and stop buying any for me in the future whenever i did something wrong. i always feel a stab of pain in my chest whenever i thought of no-more-reading for me. the feeling really sucks. i hate it. reading is my life.

dad, mum, if you really did come across this blog or more specifically those posts that contain my guilt. please, just for once more, forgive me for loosing control. i know you guys don't wanna see me like this. taking drugs. i will be in control of myself from now ( 5.47 pm of 18-March-2010 ) on. i will keep my promise to pull myself out of obsession to not just only books, but everything. please, i can do anything if you stop telling me that i would possibly get into the darkness of the no-more-reading. i fear my for that to happen. really, please don't take it away from me. i will suffer without books. and mum, please don't say that you'll tear my books when you're angry, i'd rather you tear me... please, stop saying that! please!

any guidance? ~

i need a guide, for my PPS. i kinda downloaded it to my laptop, everything was running perfectly. but there is one problem. the titles and options are all in symbols like -??- . no alphabets. i don't know what i am looking for if this goes on. can anyone provide me with a guide? i have already downloaded it a few times, but the thing is, it can't get cured..

aww man! ~

today, i woke up at about 10am to the ring and vibrates of my phone. haiz, it was my mum again, today, i tried to keep my voice and mood calm, cause i don't want the volcano to erupt again. things went well so far, and my mum had already asked Savy to heat a canned food, for my dish this morning with rice. it was edible.

after that, i did what i wanted to, every minute of my awake and slumber. i started reading. lolz, i think that's a really boring thing to talk about, since i have been talking about it for so many days. anyone out there who hates reading or the books, please forgive me! cause i really can't control myself, i seem to be thinking about it every time, no-matter what am i doing. i think about it when i am blogging - like now - , watching TV, playing with my two doggies, playing badminton with my cousin, dreaming and even breathing.

and erm, a little tip, i reread Twilight with the movie running on my TV in the hall, and read New Moon also with the movie. haha, i guess i am insane. but it's my habit, i can always generally watch TV while doing something else like reading, surfing the internet, doing schoolwork and etc.

i've been through this, many times. i always loose control over something ( books and movies ) or someone i admire ( public figures ). and i know what will happen in the end, i will kind of loose interest with it after some time and forget about it and go on to be crazy about something else ( if there is one ).

but books have been a tougher task for me, since reading is an activity that needs patience and attention. every word and scene ( my imaginary scenes ) will flash through my mind some time or other, disturbing me from concentrating on what i am doing or thinking.

yeah, i guess it's getting really boring now, about the book topic, i'll really try harder not to be so worked out about it. and i'd better get back to what i want to say.

so, today i invited my cousin, Germaine to come over to my house, to like urm play badminton or something like that. but sadly the wind was to strong today, so we went to my car porch, to play with my doggies.

then Ger wanted to get back home, to finish something, as she said. and wanted me to call her out in the evening. but sorry Ger, i was to distracted with the book that i forgot all about asking you!! please forgive me!

tonight, we had a peculiar dinner. my mum is obsessed with Steam Boat. and she wants to have it tonight. but i protested. and at last, we came up with the conclusion that i and my dad should eat rice with some dishes, while she herself have the who Boat to herself. it was weired, that our dining table was topped with a Steam Boat and a few dishes together with our rice and soup.

and after the dinner, my uncles and my granny asked us over to eat Durians. { wow, the English dictionary doesn't have this word } *shudders* .

and yeah, i guess i have not much more to say today, except for nightie night!

i am going back to reading! ~~ haha

and let me say once more:

MY HOLIDAY WILL NEVER BE BORING IF I HAVE BOOKS AROUND ME!!

50% not my day~

today i woke up a bit late, around quarter before 2pm. the reason for me waking up late is because i was again up reading my favorite book - Twilight until 3am. xD

this morning, i woke with a jump by the sound and vibrates of my hand phone. it was my mum. and her voice was piercing even through the microphone, statelite, and my speaker. my mum, is a fiery woman. anyone who hears her voice will shiver. her temper, like no one else, can shake walls and create earthquakes.

after the introducing about my mum, you guys should know how fierce is she. this morning, she scolded me through the phone, accusing me about waking late. my mood was kinda spoiled within the first few minutes after waking up.

after waking up, i did something i've been doing most of the time these three days - i started reading! and hahax, you should have guessed the title of my book by now. ( Twilight )

but lol, i wasn't moody for the rest of my day, as a bookworm, i was completely sucked into the book, and it was worth the effort. i finished Twilight today at about 4pm and proceeded to New Moon. i guess it will be finished within this week, which makes me sad by thinking about it. that means i'll have to start Breaking Dawn and skipping the entire Eclipse. i really hate that, i hate the feeling to skip any thing, especially books. i hate the feeling when i can't find the certain four books of The Saga Of Darren Shan. the feeling sucks. and i don' want the same thing to happen to my favorite book.

shit, dang damn it. i don't know when will be my next trip to the Popular Bookstore and get my missing book. dang it... ==''

condition & status today~

• tired

i was tired today cause, as i've said before, my parents bought me three books from The Twilight Saga, and you guys know how obsessed i am about it. yesterday night, i set off reading the very 1st book - Twilight. and holy crow, i slept at 5:30am, without my parents knowing of-course. they actually thought i was asleep at around 1:30am. this morning, i woke at about 10am++. my parents brought a guru, someone said to have special powers gifted by god, to come and comment or whatever about our house and other things like my schooling, my parents working and blah blah blah. and because i slept so late and woke so early, my whole day was a bit blurry. i had tuition class at 1pm, it was actually scheduled at 12:30pm but my tuition teacher has a nasty habit of coming late.

• happy / excited

my parents adopted a new female pup, generally to let my little Benjy to have a companion, and also letting them mate. they are both Shih Tzus. my Benjy, a quite stupid or you might say clumsy boy, couldn't seem to get on top of little Dingdong. yeah, Dingdong is my new pup's name. her previous owner named her that. anyway, i am sure Benjy will at last get on top and have a few new-born puppies, which i can name them whatever names i want. Dingdong is cute, slightly darker color than Benben, but she's still as adorable as ever! my benben is a little different from other dogs. he's a 100% pure Shih Tzu but with a pinky nose. the vet said that pink-nosed pups are not allowed to participate in competitions. they say that pink-nosed pups are a little no qualified. but, for me, my little benben's pinky nose is the most special part of him, and, i think if he doesn't have that birthmark, he won't be so handsome! his pink nose absolutely fits with his fur!!

yay! The Twilight Saga!!~

i'm a bookworm, as told before. i love books, storybooks, especially centered in Vampires. i love The Saga of Darren Shan, The Twilight Saga and etc. these two books are my favorite of all times. they even overcome my last favorite - Harry Porter. now, i am a freak for Twilight. The Twilight Saga is so popular now that no one doesn't know about it. the author is Stephanie Meyer. she's completely my idol.

actually i started by watching the movie based on it starred by Robert Pattinson and Kristen Steward. they made a great pair, and i absolutely love Edward and Bella. Rob and Kristen are so perfect for these two characters.

then, a few of my friends told me that the book was more detailed and interesting. so, i bugged my dad and mum to buy me the whole series. and at last, finally, as i wished, they bought them for me. but there was no stock for Eclipse, so i'd only bought Twilight, New Moon and Breaking Dawn. Stephanie Meyer is working on a new collection, Midnight Sun which continues the incredibly interesting romance of Bella and Edward.

in the movie, Edward was a curious boy, attracted by Bella, while Bella was attracted by Edward's handsome and flawless figure. Edward was cool and quiet in the movie, always trying to avoid Bella but at last failed.

in the book, Edward was more aggressive, a bit friendlier than in the movie. Bella was attracted by Edward all the same.

i love the movie, and the book still. i am really eager to see the new filmed Eclipse to be broadcasted over the world in June 30th this year. i can't even wait for the stock to arrive for Eclipse the book.

omg, anyone who has not read and watched it, better do it now, before you regret.

my F***ing teacher ~

she is my Art Teacher. she wanted me to hand up my Note Book the next day on a certain Tuesday in February cause i have't finish my notes the previous week. ok, i finished it before my recess that day. i brought it upstairs to her office. she said she don't wanna accept it because i din't put some creative colors. so, i went downstairs to my class and borrowed a set of color pencils from my friend - Sim Yeen. after touching up, i brought my book up again. this time, she accepted it, and i am making it clear here, that i passed my book to her personally. and on the past Thursday, i got a message from her, saying that she wants my Note Book on Friday ( March ). i was shocked. my book IS with her. and now, she wants me to hand it up.

yesterday, i went to her office and asked her about my book. she said she din't receive my book. but i am very sure it is with her. ok, then never mind. she wants me to reproduce a new Note Book. and because she wants to collect the Note Books to give us marks for our Art. then i asked her, can she give me some time to redo it, and then only let her give marks. she said: "no. today's the last day for marks giving. your book wasn't wrapped with a present paper, as you've told me, and i want a nice book. there's a boy from your class who din't wrap his book, like you. i will give you the same marks i gave him." i din't know what to say, so i said "ok". then, i flipped his book, and found out that his book was absolutely ugly. without colors, nice drawings and most of the notes are photo-stats. and, obviously, any teacher, even the most generous one will not give him high marks. my book was only unwrapped. the contents are a 100 times nicer than his. and i thought: if my book was given marks like him, just because i din't wrap, it is ridiculous.

i told my parents about this when i got back home. they are very angry about this. my dad is going to fetch me to school, demand that it is not fair that my marks are to depend on another classmate's book. that F***ing teacher, Puan Atina, will never get any respect from me, ever. i hate her.

P. Atina, awak yang menghilangkan buku aku, sekarang, awak nak bagi markah yang tidak baik, salah dan dengan cuai.

awak tiada kelayakan untuk menjadi cikgu saya, tiada kelayakan untuk juga menjadi seorang cikgu.

you are not qualified to be my teacher, not qualified to be a teacher. you, are irresponsible, and responsibility is the first rule that a teacher must follow.

Exams for So Many pupils!~

as i've said before, its our exam week. the next few subjects for me to endure tomorrow and on Friday are KH, Geography, Sivik and Science. and after those? holiday for 1 week. which is not what i really want. through the exam papers before, i found out that my results and studies have worsen. i think i haven't get the tactic for my Ringkasan Karangan. it was limited for 80 words. and i did until 123 words. i presume i will knock off a few marks for that.

i saw today on my cousin's blog saying that she had an English test and got A for it. i feel so happy for her! congratulations Ger! a good start means that you are halfway to victory! Ger, you are a genius! and C.gratz again!!!! i love you~ ^_^

and as for my English today, i did not do very well too. it was my essay. they limited us with two paragraphs but i am so blur that i wrote 4 paragraphs. oh man, i think i will also get marks knocked off for this. and if it knocked enough marks for me to get a B grade in my English, i will be dead meat. OMG, i am so sad.. but i can promise that i can get my good grades and get back to my standard the next exam. this? i'll treat this like a secondary settlement, just to get me used to secondary exam question styles.

but i am still very scared, i think i can't accept the fact that i am worsening. my dad and mum has high hopes in me, especially when i'm their only child.

i am really scared. what should i do? --> but don't tell me those things like study hard, pay attention, etc. i know those already lar..

oh, sorry guys, if i was a little emotional and bad tempered, i think i was abit unhappy. please forgive me!

my stupid maid II~

my parents use to keep coins and some small amounts of notes like RM1 in a cupboard for my maid to stock up some bread everyday when the motor-bread-seller comes by our house. my dad thought her to buy a RM2.30 bread with 4 x 50cents + 1 x 20cents + 1 x 10cents. today, when i came home from school, she came and said: " x'cuse me Yani, money no enough buy roti. " showing me 2 x 50cents + 1 x 20cents + 1 x 10cents. i spilled my wallet and found an RM1 note and gave it to her. and guess what she told me, she said my note cant buy the bread. she needs another 2 x 50cents. and then i went to the cupboard, and found out that it was pilled with coins and notes. and then i know she ran out of 50cents, that's why she said money not enough. urrgh... i don't know when can i get to show this girl how to count money or any other thing she doesn't know. i've spent hours teaching her the coins. she learn't them, but she doesn't even know

RM0.20+RM0.1o=_?_

she is real real real real stupid.

my doggie - the story II~

they ( my parents and my uncle ) brought our cute pups for a monthly health treatment on saturday. my cute benjy went too. the doctor said that they require a pill, one for each of them.

my doggie was the ~( i don't know, i din't go.) to have the pill.

when it was his turn, the doctor quickly put the tablet into his mouth and professionally shut his mouth up and kind of pushed his throat a little, so that the pill would go down my doggie's little throat. after the doctor think it has gone down, he turned his back on benjy. suddenly, my benben spit the tablet out, he din't swallow it. he kept it under his tongue until the doctor left him alone. when he did that, i heard that the room roared with laughter. the doctor said that it was his first encounter with a smart dog who keeps its tablet in its mouth without swallowing it.

i was laughing until tears roll down my cheeks and my stomach muscles were aching. i'd always knew my benjy is a cute little fella, but this story really cheers me up whenever i think about it!!~

exam week~

it's the 1st exam week for SMK Taman Tasik. i am having my exams. firstly, i wanna say that secondary is a very big change. the questions of my exams are harder than before. like the Ringkasan Karangan. it is limited for 70 words but i did 123 words today. i think i will have a few marks deducted for over-writing.

Seni was not too well for me. my teacher told us the wrong revision topic, and most of us din't know what to do. i know only half of the questions.

i will be taking my English, maths and history exam tomorrow. i think i will be alright in maths and english. while i am not too sure about my history. i am quite weak in it.

on Thursday, i will have more exams like KH and such. i don't think i am doing well this term but i still have to go through this. everyone goes through this. holly shit, i am damned.

hahax.. i look so..... xD~

here's the funny outfit my school wants me to wear on stage.

today, i was informed that i had to get back to my primary school - SJK(C) Kg. Baru Ampang to get the prize money according to the UPSR results.

funny thing part 1:

i was told to go but not told that i should wear my uniform. i had my T-shirt and my jeans on and went there. Sin Ming took my car there. she wore her uniform. i asked her: is it necessary? she said she saw it in the paper sent to a classmate of hers showing that we should wear our uniforms. but never mind, my dad says that they will still let me go without my uniform.

when i reached, the teacher wanted me to wear my uniform urgently. she says it's because casuals are not striking enough. so my dad and mum drove me home to change.

funny thing part 2:

my handphone has some problems with the energy storage. it uses up all my battery when i have a phone call. when i called my mum, it was drained. my dad accused me for not charging it. stupid phone. i don't wanna use one again, if i'll get accused like that.

so my dad let me use a spare phone that he kept. it's the one he uses when he's on a company trip overseas. i changed the sim card and you guess what... i left it in the car. got another scolding from my dad, saying that i am careless, blah blah blah....

funny thing part 3:

i have already confirmed with Sin Ming that i'll take her car back home yesterday night. she clearly said alright. today, we 7 As holders are the last to be on stage. when i came down, my friend said she's gone. so my dad said maybe i'd walk out first and see if i can meet her at the gate. i saw her walking along with a party of friends, and din't even think about the promise.

a friend with her saw me and asked me to come together to the lunch they planned at the Mc Donald. i was stunned. i never even know about the lunch and they said that Sin Ming is going straight away. i was thinking, i need to go home, NOW cause i have a tuition class to attend.

i called her, and found that she THOUGHT that i am taking my dad's car back. but i really did confirmed with her that i AM taking her car back. she excused: "your mum said she is sending you home." i said: "really? i din't know about it." she said again: "erm, ( =.=! ) i mean my mum thought you are following your parents. so she doesn't care less about me. ( all in chinese )

conclusion:

well, not to say that i am rumoring here, but it's only what i think about them ( sometimes ).

~maybe a little irresponsible

• like i said, she din't take the responsibility to ask me about my transportation home.
• and my dad has to send me home because i can't follow her to lunch, cause i have tuition. and result for my dad sending me home? he was late for his next appointment.

~a little takes things for granted

• always asking others to do favors like fetching her children here and there.

~not confirmed about things that concerned

• she is always blur about what she does and did.
• never sure about anything

erm Sin Ming, i am not blackening, and i do not accuse you. but as a friend, i really hope you can improve after seeing this, if you don't read it, it's ok, i'll just leave it here, until one day you'll really look at this, properly.

please... help!

i slept until 1:35 pm today morning, erm, i think its afternoon. was kinda slammed when i woke up cause i hit the sack at around 3:30 am yesterday, abit later than my cousin, Germaine cause i gotta take a bath before going to sleep. yesterday, i went over to her house to watch a movie based on one of my favorite books - The Saga Of Darren Shan. i loved the book alot, and i was so hopping to watch a nice movie based on it. but sadly, it upset me. they changed a bit of the script and missed out many cool scenes. just like Twilight. haiz... so sad... i wanna complain!!

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hooked up my memories ~

i browse my friends' blogs everyday to get the newest update of my friends. today, as usual, i went browsing my friends' blogs.

when i reached my cousin, Germaine's blog, i saw her latest post. she talked about her family members.

she said she din't get the chance to pay a final respect to her grandfather, because she wasn't here in Malaysia. and she also talked about my loving Uncle Ray, the one who's pampered me like his own child.

i really miss my grandfather and my Uncle Ray. my grandfather worked at the minister quarters when he was young. during my young years, my grandfather told me many things about his adventures and his working stuff. my grandfather passed away when i was 7. i remember faintly that he died a day after the All Souls Day ( the Qing Ming Festival ) for Chinese. i remember he was very week then, he din't come with us to clean our ancestors' grave, a Chinese cultural thing to do. after doing those, we went back home, exhausted. then, suddenly, i don't know what happened. it was at night. i think my grandfather had a heart attack. then the ambulance came. my granny went with him in the ambulance, while we go by car. when we reached the hospital, i was told that my grandfather had left me. we cried all the way. especially me, my grandfather was the third person after my parents who really loved me. for me, he IS my third most important person in my life. i love him. i will never forget how he pampered me by scolding my father when he scolded me. gonggong is what i call him. gonggong, you will be in my heart forever. i love you.

my uncle was a marine engineer. he is very very very good at swimming. he was also my swimming coach. he thought me how to dive, float, swimming with my eyes open and how to stay above water when in deep water. i din't get to see him on the last day of his life, i am really sad... but i can't cry over spilled milk, so, i should look forward and study well to thank those who had treated my well.

yes, it's me again~

at last, finally! my class was not electric-proof. after the storm on Monday, my class indeed has no electricity. it was so hot and so dark. i can't even see the white-board properly. well, today was like a day when superheroes come to the rescue. we had our electricity back and the class was once again cool and bright. i love the feeling when studying in a comfortable environment. it feels like you can study for the rest of your lives. [ pupils might have felt the magnificent feeling at school ]

today's Thursday, and we had science and KH ( living skills ) class. Thursdays are days that we study at a different, more interesting classroom, that is the science lab and the bengkel ( workshop). we girls have KH classes separated from the boys. i don't really know what's that for, but i think it's because girls are learning household work and the boys are really training their skills.

today i took part in an English written quiz competition at school. at first my dad's words yesterday haunted me fir quite awhile, he said: " you don't read newspapers, how can you fight with others? " well, it worried me until the second when i got my paper, it was titled a QUIZ, but the questions were nothing more than exam questions. and what is more, those questions are so easy! i finished them in about 20 minutes plus. it has 34 questions. i participated with an Indian classmate from Gemilang. the questions were mostly testing your grammar and phrases. maybe i wont get 100% for it, but i am very confident that i won't have more than 3 mistakes. i really hope i can get my results as soon as possible. anyhow, English is still my favorite subject and which i care for most.

i will be having my 1st term examination next week. it'll last for a whole week. Monday - Friday. i'm kinda confident in English, Maths and Science. Art has became more difficult and more complicated for me once i touched Form 1. i've just started studying Geography and History ( Sejarah ) this year, so i can't say that i am confident in those. my BM and Sivik should be ok but my KH was not very good since Primary 4. so i am not going to put high hopes in it. i am really worried. my headmistress's target: Gemilang, Cemerlang and Cekap must not have results lower than B in all the subjects. it is a really big pressure. i wanna stay in Gemilang! i guess i must really do my very best.

Pray For Me!!

my stupid maid~

after my Indonesian maid went back, we hired a new Cambodian maid. her name's Savy. Speaks a little English. but she is an absolute dumdum. very stupid. examples? here they are:

• i asked for a bowl of Maggi Mee. guess what did she give me? she gave me a bowl of Maggi Mee + a bowl of Chinese soup.
  Crazy
• i had a sore throat yesterday. i asked for a cup of warm honey. and she gave me a cup of iced-honey. then i asked her did she know what is warm? that stupid girl told me that she knows what's warm... then i asked her if its warm then why can i find ice cubes in the cup? she said she made it warm and THEN put in ice.
  Stupid
• i asked her to take me a new clean exercise book for me from the study room. she gave me a BNK.
• REALLY STUPID

my doggie - the story~

my puppy is from a pet shop. my dad and mum bring me to a pet shop every now and then to cure my thirst of playing with puppies. i love puppies very much.

one day, i went to this pet shop and asked to carry him. i loved him. but my parents said that my granny wouldn't like him.

i called her at once. my granny loves me very much. she tells me that i can have any puppy i want. but my parents still doesn't really want him. i sulked for a day.

the next day, my dad gave me a big surprise. he brought my Benjy back when he came home after work.

when i wanted him at the pet shop, there was 2 other Shih Tzu(s) in the case. when dad went to the shop, only benjy was left. the other 2 doggies have been sold out.

haha, i was so lucky that i have him ^^

i can't take my eyes off of you~

Troy:

Ya never know what you’re gonna feel, oh
Ya never see it comin’ suddenly it’s real
Gabriella:
Oh, never even crossed my minde, no
That I would ever end up here tonight
Both:
All things change
When you don’t expect them to
No one knows
What the future’s gonna do
I never even noticed
That you’ve been there all along
Chorus
Troy & Gabriella:
I can’t take my eyes off of you
I know you feel the same way too, yeah
I can’t take my eyes off of you
All it took . . . Was one look
For a dream come true
Ryan:
Yeah, we got a good thing goin’ on
Sharpay:
Oh, right here is right where we belong
Both:
You never really know what you might find
Now all I see is you and I
You’re everything I never knew
That I’ve been looking for
Chorus
Ryan & Sharpay
All:
Can’t take my eyes off of you
Oh, oh, oh yeah
So let the music play
Can’t take my eyes off of you
Yeah, the feeling’s getting’ stronger
And I never ever felt this way
Alright, I see everything
In your eyes. . . Oh yeah
Alright, something’s happening
Cause everyone’s around but
You’re the only one I see
Chorus
I can’t take my eyes off of you
Feelings like I never knew
I can’t take my eyes off of you
From the start. . . Got my heart
Yeah, you do
Can’t take my eyes off you

so happy today ~

i am so happy today! at school..

• my Chinese teacher was absent.
• my Sejarah teacher was absent.
• i got to try out some apparatus at the science lab for an experiment with my 2 other classmates ( electrical shock in between )
• English, we had an electrical shock a few minutes before the school bell rang
• it was raining heavily when we left our class. and hence, i and my car mates din't need to walk up the flight of deadly stairs...

i also invited Sin Ming and Kien Hao to come to have a revision at my house together. that stupid dumdum say he wanna "see first" wor... really dumdum lor..