disapointment~

i woke up early today, 8am to take a bath and get prepared for my tuition due 9am today. so i quickly got Savy, my maid to make my breakfast for me. i finished eating at 9am sharp. and i got on Facebook, Blogger, Wikipedia and Stephenie Meyer - exploring or browsing - while waiting for my teacher, Ms Pong.

but sadly i got her message at about 10am, and found out that she overslept. so, the class will not get on today. that's my teacher. late and oversleep. often. ha ha, its not a good habit but i like her. she teaches me well, despite the inaccuracy of time. she is the one who rescued me when my result was as bad as overdue fish, when i gave up hope for getting good results such as 1st in class and straight As for my UPSR.

she steered me back in time, for me to regain my confidence in studying. my result really shot up at a surprising pace last year, when i shot from the 131st in school ( 2008 ranking ) to the top 50 in my school ( last year ranking ). and unexpectedly i can actually get straight As for my UPSR.

but right now, i am in 1 Gemilang, said as the express class in my school. i've never felt this before. last year, i can win everyone in my class by my results even if i din't study and took my exams easily. now, in Gemilang, i suddenly felt there are more top students to fight with. i was the top in my class last year but now?? i feel like i am only average.

i am worrying. worried that i am going to fail, fail getting good rankings in my class. i may not be the last one in class, but i hope i can be the 1st, just like everyone else.

i am going to get this done, no matter what...