my stupid results~

guys, so sorry, i have to admit i have not been quite active this few days. the reason is because i am too busy being sad and worried about my 1st term result. as told before, the examinations were hard, to me that is. it seemed that i am getting all my results this week. i am still lacking Sivik & the real result for Geography ( cause we only estimated ).

this is my result:

BM ~ 70% ~ B

BI ~ 90% ~ A

BC ~ 62% ~ C

SEJ ~ 70% ~ B

GEO ~ 75% ~ B

SC ~ 94% ~ A

MATH ~ 97% ~ A

MORAL ~ 84% ~ A

SENI ~ 80% ~ A

KH ~ 55% ~ C

this is my result. bad enough huh? i've never survived more than a C before, since that day i got my report card for the 1st time of my Primary 6. you can tell that i am worst in BC and KH. well, as told, i hate Chinese, and i am thinking about dropping out of it, if it affects my result. and as for KH, i gotta admit i've never been good in it since Primary 4. i never got an A for that. but i still know, now i am Secondary, and i have to start taking things seriously. last year, i can still get straight As for my UPSR without even studying ( well, actually i haven't held a book to study at home for my last 12 years ). but now? no more relaxing. after my high results for my last year's study and my UPSR, i know i can't endure getting worse now. even if it's not my parents' hope, i hope that myself. i wanna keep up my standard. i don't wanna worsen. that's why i've quited all my online games now, and for the 1st time i'd try to study - at home - by myself. the feeling sucks, it feels like having to learn all those you've already known again and again, never seeming to end. BUT, i have to force myself to do it, cause i absolutely know that i will get high marks IF I KNOW WHAT I AM STUDYING. my marks are low, which means i am not geared. i am not stuffed full. i have FLAWS. i have 5 As, 3 Bs and 2 Cs!! can you see it? 2 Cs!! shit. i am shit. C is lower than average and i got two. maybe i am really a pack of shit.

and i will be back tonight, or tomorrow, to announce my last subject's result..