moving on!! ~

30th of November... do you know what it means? it means: "get started to prepare for next year's studies". and also the same, next year's November 30th, means that i should already start studying for my upcoming PMR test...i am now in my mum's office, she installed a wireless connection yesterday and that makes things more convenient for me when i want to use my laptop.. (i love my PC more than any high-tech computers) mum's busy with bookings, phone calls, schedules, and etc. as usual.. dad on the other hand, is entertaining two (i don't know who) females.. they look busy, with one of them typing on her PC, and a big pile of files of documents beside... and me? i am here doing nothing but stupid blogging and listening to my iPod, maybe called in by my mum to do some faxing or Photostatting once in a while.. today may be my last day here this year, as I've mentioned, i should stay at home studying and preparing for next year's classes in December.
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an additional incident ~ i had a scolding from my mum yesterday night, for yelling loudly as i protested something.  it wasn't just pure scolding, but the deafening voice of hers was participated by blows on my head and etc. i don't know, i just feel uncomfortable these few days, i have this feeling of boxing the mirror in my bathroom when i saw it (i've did that before, but only my ex-maid knew about it), i felt like dumping my laptop on the floor, banging the door until it's hinges can't hold it in place... i just felt kind of... violent.... i wanted to vent something, but i don't know what, i wanted so badly to destroy anything that came into my sight.... that 2-3 weeks, i behaved very very very badly.. i shouted whenever i talked, i protested with a volume high enough to make people jump with astonishment..

but, my point is, i learned my lesson... i should never express my my real feelings too clearly, i should make my cold, quiet and numb personality when in contact with strangers a big part of my true self. that may save me a lot of uninvited problems and conflicts. i am slightly problematic, a little violent in nature, or you may say that i have a fiery temper or whatever. i am extremely emotional, everyone in this universe who knows me knows this, and they are smart enough to leave me alone when i am 'emo' . but all these can be settled when i feel nothing, nothing at all. i may have my regular mood swings inside, but with my cold personality, i can hide it from those around me, and then i wouldn't make the atmosphere as gloomy as myself...
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i guess that's all for now, i din't have much rest last night, rolling up and down my bed for the entire night, crumpling my bedsheets... and for that, i'll have to pay a price, i think feel like i am drugged right now >.<

致: 爸爸, 妈妈, 朋友 ~

我不太擅长表达自己.. 从小就没办法说出家人或朋友之间常说的肉麻话, 也从来都不会向爸爸妈妈撒娇.. 我时常情绪不稳定, 这一秒可能会很开心, 下一秒可能会变得沉没.. 脾气暴燥, 尤其是刚睡醒的样子, 我知道真的很难看.. 会很容易发脾气.. 少少事情就开始飙声.. 我不太会表达自己对你们的关心..

与一些不太熟的朋友, 我可能是比较少沟通, 甚至连要聊两句话都很难.. 要跟我混熟, 是需要很久的时间的, 一切都看我们是否有缘吧.. 与我较熟的好友, 听说你们有点怕我啊? 好啦, 我承认我的情绪是有点可怕, 但是只要你们在我情绪突然低落的时候把我放在以边, 过一阵子我就会恢复原来的我了.. 至于你们说我沉没时的样子很凶, 那就没办法了, 我也不想的.. 我已经尽量在改变了, 但还是请你们多多包容我 >.<

爸, 我知道你有时会觉得妈妈在我心里地位比你重要, 但你错了. 你们对我来说是平等的. 两人都是我最亲爱的人.. 对我都一样重要. 我之所以会时常给你脸色看, 是因为全家就只有你能容忍我. 至于你常说我只听妈的话, 那是因为我知道妈的性格跟我一样, 脾气也一样暴燥, 不喜欢别人不听话.. 而你的性格, 能让我以我自己的方式撒一下娇, 拖一点时间.. 但我也没说过我不会去做你要我做的事啊.. 还有你也常说你跟我说话的时候我不回应.. 那是我的性格.. 我被责骂之后是不喜欢说话的.. 但也不代表我没把你的话听进去.. 而且就像之前说的, 就只有你能忍受我不回应你.. 这些都是我每次都不能在别人面前做的.. 找遍全世界就只能在你面前做回一分钟真正的我, 你难道就不能当看不到我, 让我发泄一下吗?

妈, 你是个女强人.. 很少女人能够独撑自己的事业.. 我知道你对我的学业抱着很高的期望.. 我也很想达到你的标准.. 我知道我现在还不够努力, 但想变得很勤劳也不是一朝一夕就能够做到的, 给我些时间好吗? 拜托啦..

爸, 妈.. 你们说你们的朋友们都说我乖巧.. 对吗? 多谢你们从小到大对我的细心栽培, 才会有今天的我.. 可是在那个乖乖的我的背后, 也有个偶尔会顽皮的我... 顽皮的我, 就会在你们的教诲下变回那个乖孩子.. 谢谢你们..

这些, 都是真实的我说不出口的, 在网络上的我, 才会有这个勇气...

你们看不到就算了, 看到的话, 请别来找我谈.. 真实世界的我, 真的谈不起 ~

good luck | 祝你们好运 ~

a few days back, i was chatting with a few adults about the upcoming UPSR test..
前几天, 我与几位长辈谈到有关今年的UPSR鉴定考试..

i have 2 - if i'm not mistaken - cousin sisters ( not so close though ) who are going to sit for this year's UPSR..
我有两个 - 没记错的话 - 表妹 ( 不是很熟的 ) 今年就要考UPSR..

i passed this exam with loads of encouragement from my family and friends, e.g there are tons of [ wish you 7As for your UPSR ] or something similar written in my about me scrapbook..
我在朋友和家人的鼓励下通过了去年的小六鉴定考试, 例如在我的自我介绍里就能看到很多 [ 祝你UPSR考获7个A ] 之类的留言..

with unbelievable good luck, i actually scored the 7 subjects, something i thought was impossible before my UPSR..
可能是我幸运, 7 科都考获优秀的成绩, 这根本是我在考试之前以为只能妄想的事情..

why should i say it may be good luck? because i din't work hard enough ~ i wouldn't hide it from you, i never studied for UPSR..
为什么我说这或许是好运? 因为我做得不够好 ~ 不瞒你说, 我根本没温习过..

my parents are proud of me, they praised me for it..
我父母很高兴, 一直称赞我..

i told them about how i din't study, but they insisted that that wasn't good luck..
我告诉他们我没温习, 但他们强调这不是我好运..

in primary, i could easily score without studying, but in secondary, ~ no pain no gain ~ ....
在小学, 我能轻易地考获好成绩, 但在中学, 已经没有 ~ 不劳而获 ~ 的事情了..

i want to wish all the year six students good luck and pass their UPSR ( not like me ~ please study ) with flying colors
我要祝所有六年级的同学们好运, ( 不要象我 ~ 要温习 ) 在UPSR考获最优秀的成绩

Rasmi - carbon monoxide

Carbon monoxide

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Not to be confused with carbon dioxide.

Carbon monoxide (CO), also called carbonic oxide, is a colorless, odorless and tasteless gas which is lighter than air. It is highly toxic to humans and animals in higher quantities, although it is also produced in normal animal metabolism in low quantities, and is thought to have some normal biological functions.

It consists of one carbon atom and one oxygen atom, connected by a covalent double bond and a dative covalent bond. It is the simplestoxocarbon, and is an anhydride of formic acid.^{[citation needed]} In coordination complexes the carbon monoxide ligand is called carbonyl.

Carbon monoxide is produced from the partial oxidation of carbon-containing compounds; it forms when there is not enough oxygen to produce carbon dioxide (CO₂), such as when operating a stove or an internal combustion engine in an enclosed space. Carbon monoxide burns with a blue flame, producing carbon dioxide.^[1] Coal gas, which was widely used before the 1960s for domestic lighting, cooking and heating despite its toxicity, had carbon monoxide as a primary constituent. Some processes in modern technology, such as iron smelting, still produce carbon monoxide as a byproduct.^[2]

Worldwide, the largest source of carbon monoxide is natural in origin, due to photochemical reactions in the troposphere which generate about 5 x 10¹² kilograms per year.^[3] Other natural sources of CO include volcanoes, forest fires, and other forms of combustion.

In biology, carbon monoxide is naturally produced by the action of heme oxygenase 1 and 2 on the heme from hemoglobin breakdown. This process produces a certain amount of carboxyhemoglobin in normal persons, even if they do not breathe any carbon monoxide. Following the first report that carbon monoxide is a normal neurotransmitter in 1993 ^[4], as well as one of three gases that naturally modulate inflammatory responses in the body (the other two being nitric oxide and hydrogen sulfide), carbon monoxide has received a great deal of clinical attention as a biological regulator. In many tissues, all three gases are known to act as anti-inflammatories, vasodilators and encouragers ofneovascular growth.^[5] Clinical trials of small amounts of carbon monoxide as a drug, are on-going.

poor thing | 可怜的小可爱 ~

my doggies' only boy, Edward, fell sick..
我两只小狗的独子, Edward 生病了..

i think it is a belly of worms..
应该是肚子里生虫..

right now he's at the vet's..
它现在在宠物医院里..

i really miss him..
我真的很想它..

Edward, please get well soon ~
Edward, 赶快好起来吧 ~

Sick | 生病

送一张我最可爱的 依灑贝拉 ( 贝拉 ) 的照片 ~
bonus picture of my cutest Isabella ( Bella ) ~







昨天13号是我生日.. 但很不幸地我生病了..
yesterday, July 13th was my birthday.. but unfortunately i was ill..

但也还好啦, 至少星期六晚上庆祝过了, 是和我五舅一起庆祝的..
but its still alright, at least we celebrated last Saturday, together with my 5th uncle..

那天我家很热闹, 超多人的.. 但多数是大人 = =||
my house was indeed very crowded, but most of the visitors are adults ==||

我的朋友来了几位, 不算多, 3-4位而已, ( 有来的自己知道 )
some of my friends came, but not many, only around 3-4 of them, ( you know yourself if you came )

那天玩到晚上12点才收工..
we stayed up until 12am that day...

我大概1-2点才睡..
if i'm not mistaken, i slept at around 1-2am

重点来了 ~
the main point is ~

第二天早上生病了 xD
i fell sick the next morning xD

看医生检查出来的病菌有.. 发烧, 咳嗽, 伤风, 等等
after a visit to the clinic, the viruses detected are.. fever, cough, flu, etc

医生给我2天MC.. 所以我星期一和二没去学校
the doctor gave me 2 days MC.. so i was absent on Monday and Tuesday

我缺席的这两天班上一直传着我转校了, 收到一大堆的sms和facebook的留言..
my class was filled with rumors of me already switching to Sri Bintang and at the end of the day i got so many SMS and Facebook messages about this question..

我今天回学校了, 你们应该明白了吧, 不用我好象前两天一样一直重复解释了噢??
i went back to school today, got it guys? do you still need me to explain to you one by one like the past 2 days?

哈哈 ~
lolz

A party | 开party ~

i don't know what's got into my parents.. they'd hated parties all along but these years, they like organizing parties.
不懂我爸爸妈妈搞什么鬼, 向来不喜欢party的他们最近爱上了开party.

this time we are cooking. my uncles and aunt ( my neighbors ) came over to help..

这次我们自己煮. 我舅舅,舅母,伯父,伯母 ( 我邻居 ) 都过来帮忙..

i invited a few friends to come and enjoy the party..

我叫了几位好友来玩...

i am just waiting for that time when everyone shows up..

现在呢, 还在等客人的到来...

so boring ~!!

超闷的 ~!!

知道就好 ~

haiz... 有够烦的 ~

why烦? 就是我的华语.. 认识我的人都知道..

最近想听爸爸的话, 逼迫自己别只看英novel, 要开始看华文小说..... 反正我也是因为从小看英文书, 上私人幼稚园, 又从小跟家人以英文沟通, 才能score英文..

一直以来, 我承认我对华文是有些偏见, ( 因为我从来不score ) 但现在我正努力改变我这个坏习惯..

可以给我些时间吗? 还有, 我的朋友们, 有什么好的爱情小说好介绍给我吗? 毕竟你们经验比我丰富.. :)

Ranking in class ~

oh well.. i guess that's it. Damn it.

wanna know about what am i complaining about? go on reading..

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i just got my ranking in class this evening. and guess what ~?? i got [17/33 (1 GML)]

bad enough right? but that's not the thing i'm angry about.. it's the subjects that the ranking includes...

chinese students are taking 13subjects altogether this term - i have no interest in the subjects taken by the other races - and dang it.. only 8 are included.

WTH i've studied every subject to get myself balanced and right now they tell me that it doesn't even affect anything...

i originally got 7As, now, just because of the stupid action they took, i am left with only 4As.. which made a very big difference to my average scores and my ranking.

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a question here for my dear friends..

• should i only focus on the 8 stupid subjects and get As for them and just couldn't care less for the others since it's nothing to us??
• why should we study overnight on the subjects that are not important? we could anytime get 8As if we only focus on the 8 subjects and we would get no punishment if we fail the others?
• is it right for the school to do this?

almost frightened to death ~

translation to post http://yanisbookworm.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html

1. I went out just now for dinner with my family, my cousin sister, Germaine went back to Singapore, no one was there to keep me company, so i brought my handphone and earphones there to occupy myself..
2. my mum and my uncle wanted to buy some fruits and a few other snacks, so we stopped by a roadside stall for quite some time..
3. when we were home, i went next door to my uncle's place, and of course, i brought with me my handphone pouch..
4. my handphone and earphones are in it, and dad helped me to take it home first..
5. my aunt was there, suddenly her friend called her and asked for my 3 newborn puppies' picture.. via e-mail
6. hence i went back home and asked my dad to get my phone from my pouch and be the cameraman to take my puppies' pictures.
7. my dad opened my handphone pouch and then angrily informed me that my handphone is nowhere to be found in my pouch.
8. i rushed to my uncle's house and searched all over the place.. and found nothing
9. and then i ran back home to get the car key to check the car.. also nothing
10. no more ideas, i got my dad to call my number, and so crazily we heard my ringtone ringing in the living room.
11. it brought us to my pouch.. and it turned out my handphone was in it all the time, hidden under my earphone wires, and because of the slim design of my phone, my dad din't realize its existence...
    
12. i was so panic before and was so shaken then that i couldn't respond to it correctly.. i burst into tears, but still disturbed by laughter.. i really don't know how did i look right then..
13. my dad kept apologizing to me the whole night, i wasn't angry with him, i would like to tell him that, but i just can't get these yucky words out of my mouth..
14. but we took the pictures at last..

差点被吓死 ~

incident~

1. 刚刚跟家人出去吃晚饭,我表姐回了Singapore,没人跟我谈天,所以带了我的电话和耳机,到那听歌..
2. 回家的途中,妈妈和舅舅要买油条和水果.. 在路边摊呆了一阵子..
3. 回到家,我到隔壁舅舅家一下下.. 也当然带着我的电话袋..
4. 电话袋里装着电话和耳机... 爸爸先帮我拿回家去..
5. 当时表姨也在这聊天,突然朋友打来要我那3只可爱到暴的小狗的portrait,要我e-mail给他..
6. 所以我回家要爸爸帮我拿下camera,当cameraman帮baby拍照...
7. 爸爸拿起我的电话袋开了zip,过后生气地说里面没有我的电话..
8. 我着急地跑到舅舅家到处找我的电话.. 却找不到..
9. 之后又跑回家拿车匙,到车上找.. 还是找不到..
10. 无计可施了,爸爸就call我的number,竟然在客厅里响起了我的电话铃声..
11. 觉得超奇怪的,便去check我的电话袋,原来它一直都在里面,被耳机遮着,而且机身交扁,爸爸没发现..
12. 我一下子反应不过来,便开始流泪,但当中却含有笑声.. 我当时的表情应该很kai吧~!!
13. 爸爸一直跟我说sorry,但我可没怪他,可是这种肉麻的东西我说不出口...
14. 最后还是拍到照片 ^^

Special art ~

my cousins. specially for you...

new life ~

these are my doggies. when this picture is taken, they were just lovers. right now, they're already a loving couple!! with 3 babies. actually ding-dong, the one on the left, female, gave birth to 6 puppies, 2 males 4 females. but unfortunately 3 passed away... and now, only 1 male 2 females are left. a few days ago, those small cuties start learning to walk. they walk shakily. stumbling every a few steps. haha... its such a pleasure to watch them.

Top 5 things i hate the most ~

the top 5 things i hate the most in my life are:

• someone forcing me to w ake up when i absolutely feel like sleeping longer
• someone forcing me to eat in the morning - around 6am ~ 8am -
• back-stabbers, gossipers, complainers, whiners, childish children who makes too much noise, the unfilial, unfair teachers/adults, etc
• someone who likes to interfere with my daily activities
• to find my parents still at home when i wake up

yes, the top 5 things i hate about... let me explain

~ i guess this one applies to everyone. who likes to be waken up when you wanna sleep?

~ i have this crazy habit, that i don't eat after i wake up. i need to wait for a few hours before i can get anything inside my mouth.

~ people i hate.. i guess thats pretty clear up there, no need to explain further.

~ e.g my maid. i don't like her to always come round the door to just say those annoying (good morning) and stuff. i hate her asking me ( do you need anything ? food? water? ) all the time when i am doing stuff. it is irritating.

~ i am not used to having parents at home with me all the time. they have their own work and offices to go to. i usually wake up to find them out or just in time for a few words with them. so, my mornings are free of parental supervision. i feel free. at night? yeah, they are home. but as always, i spend my nights with them, so its not so uncomfortable. but, i like to do my own things in the morning, afternoon. if i find them here, i can't concentrate. i just feel like there's a CCTV poking its nose into the things i do.. that feeling is - uneasy -

a fan-made video ~

这次的比上次好很多... 我进步了~!! 哈哈

你们觉得呢??

我最爱的明星榜 (台湾) ~

明星榜 my idols

1. 炎亚纶
2. 鬼鬼
3. 晨亦儒
4. 吴尊
5. 罗志祥
6. 汪东成
7. 小鬼
8. 张韶涵
9. 杨丞琳
10. 胡宇岁
11. 曾沛慈

角色榜 characters

1. 007 ~ 霹靂MIT
2. 天魔星 ~ 霹靂MIT
3. 747 ~ 霹靂MIT
4. 孙尚香 ~ 终极三国
5. 丁小雨 ~ 终极一班
6. 灸舞 ~ 终极一家
7. 薛海 ~ 海派甜心

好了.. 懒写了.. 改次再继续 ~~

我的好朋友们, 看了之后comment一下.. 我的偶像还OK吗??

hi again! ~

sorry guys, a little offline nowadays. quite busy with homework and additional tuition.. i will not be as free as a few weeks ago, so please forgive me >.<

~i made this new video about the famous boy band - Fanrenheit飞轮海, try it!

haha

psps: 1st time, maybe a little not so pro, but next one will be better!! xD

i'm sorry, i failed you~

"did you tell your late uncle Ray and your grandfather about your achieve in your UPSR last year."

this was the question my dad and mum asked me when we went to visit my grandfather's grave and my uncle Ray's place.

i wanted to tell them about it, but every single time i thought about it, it brought tears to my eyes. i can't tell them that, once i think about my stupid result of my 1st term at my new school, my new year, form 1. i actually dropped from the 1st in class for the whole entire year 2009 to the 16th in my class.

i can't really cope up in a few new subjects, Geography, History and Kemahiran Hidup. i figured out that maybe i need to attend a full subject tuition. i think i am going to attend this tuition center.. erm i don't really know the name, but i know some of my friends and classmates are having classes there, so i think it wont be so bad..

let's give it a shot!!

why is this happening??~

超久没写华文BLOG了, 我的华文POST今天就从出江湖给你们看. 哈哈, 语气很重hor, 开玩笑的啦...

我今天得到了全班名次的消息, 发现我的烂成绩帮我获得了全班第16名. 这打击, 虽然不是很大, 但我还是很伤心. 去年, 我在班上可是不需费一点儿努力也可拿到全班第一的贺子欣. 我去年全年是班上第一, 除了那2次失策得不到第一的小考. 现在, 竟然从第一名跌到第16名.. why is this happening?

btw之前有个朋友告诉我, "小心别看英文故事书看到走火入魔," 哎, 你们不知道呀... 我已在我第一次开始看英文的时候就已经被这语文深深地吸引住, 无法自跋. 走火入魔? haha, 我看我已经远超那个境界了!! 老友, 我爱英文的程度是远远地超乎你的想象的....

i am working on it~

i browsed the web with so much effort and at last, found the one i wanted.

oh?? din't see you here. what? up there? oh that's nothing. i was just thinking about the piano sheet of River Flows In You by Yiruma. yes. i found it on a website suggested by a friend. it was great, cause for players, it's a hard work to find the notes to play the song you want. and it is 10000 times harder than finding lyrics.

yeah, i found i at last, printed it out and filed it. brought it to my teacher and requested her to teach me. i'm on with the 1st few notes but i can't seem to catch the spirit of the lullaby. but i am working on it. and i am improving. i can do anything as long as i've made up my mind. and i know that i can play that lullaby well enough.

any of my friends play piano? would love to get some advise from you here!

unlucky day~

yerks.. Friday, 2nd April, a day after April Fool. i was so damningly unlucky. well, firstly, i found a squashed BEE inside my right shoe, you could guess how it died. it's juice was spurted and sucked into my shoe cushion and my stocking. it sends shivers to my spines even when i think of it now. i think the bee went into my shoe when no one was looking. and my stupid maid let me wear the shoe with that stupid bee in it. argh... my right leg, i feel like chopping it off now.

and secondly, we had PE yesterday. and while i was just unemotionally walking around, thinking about my homeworks, i tripped over a schoolbag. i don't know who it belongs to. i strained an ankle, my right ankle. it's better today, compared to yesterday. but i still feel like sawing my right leg off and replace it with a luckier one...

ha ha, cool. a leg unlucky for twice in a day.... zzz. nuisance.

and btw i think my friend, has changed her attitude of treating me. i guess its the influence cause by the girls she hangs out with nowadays. they're absolutely not good girls. i don't like her attitude now, and so is my other friend. i won't wanna be close to her now. i don't like those who can't control themselves, those who can't wake up from their wrong dreams. those who keep stepping into sinking sands and those who are just plainly stubborn.

i dislike it~

i always get questions like:

"how do you like your new school?"

"how's your secondary life?"

and i can tell you that i dislike it. i dislike my school, dislike the life there, and more specifically, dislike some of my friends.

why do i dislike them? here are some examples: ~

• my friend, a girl, is starting to get closer to bad girls. a girl, in 1 Ceria of SMK Taman Tasik. i don't wanna reveal the names of either the influencer or the influencee. but here're some cases.
  
  1. that naughty girl convinced my friend to ditch the weekly assembly and hide in the toilet, until the bell rings and it's time to get into class. they said that the assembly was boring and they wanted to skip it, go to the class to very 1st minute after the assembly is called.
  Her Ans: " OK! "
  and they ditched it. well, they never get caught but my friend's mum blasted her off in the car. and she still sticks with these bad girls after realizing that they are not good for her.
  
  2. that girl, that ditching queen, had much worse influence on my friend. she got her to GAMBLE. a very seriously bad thing to do, and to make things worse, they gamble at school!!
  
  3. a more general influence now. since that girl has a gang, they hang out together. and now, they've made my friend unaware of her schoolwork. she doesn't care about her - now - bad results. she doesn't do all her homework. she doesn't even care less about what advise people gave to her. she'll just keep quite, staring out of the window of the car or reading a Chinese Novel, not bothering to respond to anything said by me and my other friend, who is also paying for transport.
  
  
• gangsters.
  i am starting to find out most of the boys in my school are turning into gangsters. and apparently they do pay a price to be one of them. RM80. turning into school gangsters is already outrages enough, and what's the point of paying a price for something that can turn you bad??

seriously i am not going to enjoy my secondary life thoroughly if i am going to see my friends turn bad one by one. if only you guys can see clearly what do you come to secondary for. studies or badness? please, please know what you're doing. get back on the right track before you can't change fate. before it gets too late. before you can regret.

please my friends, do not tune out all those things your parents or other adults say to you. they will not lead you on the wrong track, they won't harm you. take their advise, and save yourselves all those regret and pain you will feel when you know better. save yourselves from drowning when you have a nice ship to relax on. why do you wanna swim across the ocean when you have the opportunity to change your future now?? why choose to suffer when you can relax?

come on, get your senses back RIGHT NOW! don't do the wrong thing!!

think thrice before making every move!!

not kidding here..

but of course, i can't force any of you to escape now, if you wanna get your feet deeper into the sinking sand, refusing to grasp the hands we thrust to you, go ahead. no one's going to save you, if you're not the one to save yourselves.

obsessed again~

i kind of found out the rough draft for Midnight Sun, the 5th book of The Twilight Saga, based on Edward's version.

this is the link:

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/midnightsun_partial_draft4.pdf

any Twilight Fans can explore, and wow.. Midnight Sun is so cool! ha ha... i can consider it the best addition of the whole Twilight Series, no thought the story is back to the 1st book.

it's so nice that i keep rereading and rereading it. i never get bored.

ok, this post is just to tell you guys the link to this heavenly draft... go check it out!! its cool

disapointment~

i woke up early today, 8am to take a bath and get prepared for my tuition due 9am today. so i quickly got Savy, my maid to make my breakfast for me. i finished eating at 9am sharp. and i got on Facebook, Blogger, Wikipedia and Stephenie Meyer - exploring or browsing - while waiting for my teacher, Ms Pong.

but sadly i got her message at about 10am, and found out that she overslept. so, the class will not get on today. that's my teacher. late and oversleep. often. ha ha, its not a good habit but i like her. she teaches me well, despite the inaccuracy of time. she is the one who rescued me when my result was as bad as overdue fish, when i gave up hope for getting good results such as 1st in class and straight As for my UPSR.

she steered me back in time, for me to regain my confidence in studying. my result really shot up at a surprising pace last year, when i shot from the 131st in school ( 2008 ranking ) to the top 50 in my school ( last year ranking ). and unexpectedly i can actually get straight As for my UPSR.

but right now, i am in 1 Gemilang, said as the express class in my school. i've never felt this before. last year, i can win everyone in my class by my results even if i din't study and took my exams easily. now, in Gemilang, i suddenly felt there are more top students to fight with. i was the top in my class last year but now?? i feel like i am only average.

i am worrying. worried that i am going to fail, fail getting good rankings in my class. i may not be the last one in class, but i hope i can be the 1st, just like everyone else.

i am going to get this done, no matter what...

all souls day (CHINGMING)~

yesterday was the all souls day, pronounced Ching-Ming in Chinese. i visited my deceased Great-grandparents and my Grandpa. we went to clean their graves, just like very other year. i went into the car groggily at around 6am. i am getting used to wake up a bit later then last year, as i am having afternoon classes now. so, there's nothing much to say about it, cause its not something extremely special. so, i will not write it here, those who are interested can use your imaginations, to imagine what you imagine. haha, knock yourselves out!!

today i went to visit my my deceased Uncle Ray. my 4th uncle, my mum's 4th brother and my grandparents. let me be clear with this, i visited the father of my mum and the parents of my mum's father. today, i visited my dad's parents. i don't know them. they were already deceased a long time before i was born. but i know my mum's father, my loving grandpa who pampered me so much when he was alive. my best grandpa in the world. and of course i remember my Uncle Ray. he's the last one to go, and i literally teared a little, without the others noticing.

well, nothing more. i wanna enjoy my Maggi Mee. i've skipped dinner today, cause i was sleeping!! * pai seh*

whoof shit 1more B~

yes. i told you guys i will come back with my Sivik result. and dang it, i got another B added to my stupid result record. yes. i got B for my Sivik, which is not an estimated thing to happen. but, even if i feel uneasy about it, i guess i'd also just have to grind my teeth and go on, moving forward. i've already uninstall all my online games, like CDO, SA and such. i am now aiming for nothing other than getting much better results the next term. so, any of you please don't ask me about playing now. i may get back to play, but please give me somemore time. when the time comes, i will return to the games world. the day i get straight As, that'll be the day i can relax. please wait for me!! xD

my stupid results~

guys, so sorry, i have to admit i have not been quite active this few days. the reason is because i am too busy being sad and worried about my 1st term result. as told before, the examinations were hard, to me that is. it seemed that i am getting all my results this week. i am still lacking Sivik & the real result for Geography ( cause we only estimated ).

this is my result:

BM ~ 70% ~ B

BI ~ 90% ~ A

BC ~ 62% ~ C

SEJ ~ 70% ~ B

GEO ~ 75% ~ B

SC ~ 94% ~ A

MATH ~ 97% ~ A

MORAL ~ 84% ~ A

SENI ~ 80% ~ A

KH ~ 55% ~ C

this is my result. bad enough huh? i've never survived more than a C before, since that day i got my report card for the 1st time of my Primary 6. you can tell that i am worst in BC and KH. well, as told, i hate Chinese, and i am thinking about dropping out of it, if it affects my result. and as for KH, i gotta admit i've never been good in it since Primary 4. i never got an A for that. but i still know, now i am Secondary, and i have to start taking things seriously. last year, i can still get straight As for my UPSR without even studying ( well, actually i haven't held a book to study at home for my last 12 years ). but now? no more relaxing. after my high results for my last year's study and my UPSR, i know i can't endure getting worse now. even if it's not my parents' hope, i hope that myself. i wanna keep up my standard. i don't wanna worsen. that's why i've quited all my online games now, and for the 1st time i'd try to study - at home - by myself. the feeling sucks, it feels like having to learn all those you've already known again and again, never seeming to end. BUT, i have to force myself to do it, cause i absolutely know that i will get high marks IF I KNOW WHAT I AM STUDYING. my marks are low, which means i am not geared. i am not stuffed full. i have FLAWS. i have 5 As, 3 Bs and 2 Cs!! can you see it? 2 Cs!! shit. i am shit. C is lower than average and i got two. maybe i am really a pack of shit.

and i will be back tonight, or tomorrow, to announce my last subject's result..

mum's birthday~

yesterday, March 20th was my mum's birthday. well, it wasn't so celebrating, cause no one held a party for her, so at night, we bought three pieces of cakes just to celebrate among ourselves.

well, yesterday was surprisingly my happiest day. like i am more happier than the birthday girl, my mum. yesterday, after my piano, my mum brought me to Ampang Point. She wanted to buy some bedsheets that she heard was on promotion at a shop there.

when we were at the ground floor, i saw something i loved for my life. a bookfair conducted by the Popular bookstore. all the books there were discounted. but mum says we should get back later, cause she wants to get her bedsheets first. mum bought two big bags of it. and I WAS TO CARRY IT! hahax, kidding, we divided it among us, and carried them downstairs to the bookshop. before that, when we were taking the escalator, i saw the book i wanted so much, Eclipse. i recognized it at once when i saw the cover even from a few levels above.

when we got downstairs, mum bought me that book. is was on a promotion of 20% discount. i was so happy! at last i have my twilight series completed!

when we got home, we met some of our relatives, they were here to visit and by the way give out some invitation cards to a wedding dinner. i don't really know who it is, just i think he's my cousin brother.

at night, after my tuition, we had a dinner together at a restaurant - Keong Kee. we are the regular customers there.

after the dinner, mum said that my phone has problems, so she wanted to buy me a new phone. they brought me to a Tesco at Ampang. i chose a Sony Ericsson W705. and when they are paying for it, i went into the Popular bookstore branch at the other side of the mall. and guess what? i found the complete collection of The Saga Of Darren Shan!! i was incomplete by four books, and now, that collection is completed too!! my mum paid for them.

yesterday was my favorite and happiest day. completing my two favorite book collection was one reason, getting a new phone was another, and the best was that i got to be around books, nothing but books, at a bookstore 2 times a day!!

dad, if you see this post, i'm sure you'll say this:

"see how your mum treat you, better thank her"

and even if you never see this, i'll still have to say, "love you mum"

heyz... public apology ~

guys, this is an apology to those who often browse my blog. i got some complaints from my friends that my posts are long, and specifically in English.

well, i am here to say sorry. cause i am used to read long stories and all those, so that makes me Write long posts naturally. and as for the language thing, well, i really can't help it. i mean like if i really wanna write my blog in Chinese, i can die in front of you right now.

i have no patience for the forming of even 1 chinese word. and to think if i wanna write a long post, how long should i write it? and my typing in English is faster than Chinese a thousand billion times.

i'm so sorry about that. but i'd be working it, i'll try to puch in some chinese language posts, and of course try not to be so long-breathed.

anyway, if you have any comments or complaints, you could always tell me by commenting. and i will surely work on it.

everyone knows~

everyone knows i hate Chinese. Everyone. all my friends, even my family members. and yet i am born in Malaysia. a country which requires the knowledge of Malay, Chinese and absolutely English. Chinese must know Chinese, Mandarin and of course better if one knows other languages. i, a little different from my other class/school mates, hate Chinese a lot. yes, i love English. like i love books. lolz. my friends keep telling me how English is a nuisance to them and i could actually say the same for the language they prefer ~ Chinese. the language that can put me in hell.

i am better in English and Malay. and i guess i can communicate with people in English and Malay with confidence. as for Chinese, i can only speak kinda well. written? oh no, i am shit in that. that last Chinese exam has proven me right. such easy questions - what my friends say - and i can make a B out of it. and please take note, it is just 8 marks past B. 68%. i am really a noob in Chinese. i just cant understand why you guys like it so much. i can get giddy when i see the troublesome Chinese words. they look nice, stylish, but its just so TROUBLESOME!!

hahaz... i still think ABCs are the better choice for me. i've been educated English and Malay since the day i opened my eyes. my parents speak to me in English, while my old maid - from Indonesia - speaks to me in Malay. and i'd only started to HEAR mandarin when i started primary. ( cause my kindie is supposed to teach English )

but it's alright, i am now in a Malay school, no forces to be good in Chinese. it's just a subject & language i learn for that little bit of my benefit. and i am absolutely not giving myself too high hopes for that. i can get a headache for that move.

lolz, but i know, you guys like Chinese as much as i love English.

it's the same. i am always asking why you don't like English while you ask me why i hate Chinese.

different points of view i guess.. well, it's ok, we have the freedom to choose. lolz.

Crap. i'm so sorry ~

last night, i hit the sack at about 2:45am, midnight. this is not the point, cause it's normal for me to stay up so late.. xD

the point is, i was up, reading again.

my schedule yesterday.

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9am+ ~ 10am+ went to school for some business.

10am+ ~ 4pm+ reading

4pm+ ~ 7pm+ friend Yeong Jing and cousin Germain visited

7pm+ ~ 2:45am reading

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from what we see, i have been reading for long hours, non-stop everyday. whenever i looked up from my book, i always feel a little dizzy. i think the long hours of reading is affecting my eyesight. I've loved reading from like when i knew how to read. maybe i should be 7 yrs old then.

i am a little short sighted here, not to say very serious, and i need not wear my specs most of the time, and thinking about it, i'd only wear it when i am copying things from the whiteboard, and it was not required since the last month. i can still see quite clearly. my dad is shortsighted too. he'd always told me to take good care of my eyes, to maintain the good eyesight. and everytime he put his head around my door, telling me to rest after a short while of reading, i said ok, but exactly when he went off, i started reading again.

yesterday mum came home planning to cook dinner. i went down in time to tell her that i am kinda tired and i am going to turn in early. i went upstairs, but instead of sleeping, i came to reading. i guess i heard my Ah-Heong-Biu-Yee, my mum's cousin sister and her husband came to our house. they where coming here to chat more often now.

at about 1am, i heard them coming home. mum came in and asked me when did i wake up. i felt a gush of guilt when she asked me that. but i lied that i woke at about 12am and can't get back to sleep. she believed me. no doubts about that. my parents believe every word i say. i really felt bad.

my parents have been telling me not to be too obsessed with anything, no matter it's schooling, reading, working or playing. something good will turn bad when it becomes a need that you can't deny. just like drugs, something that can help with medical actions but some people just want them cause they can't live without it. my dad put it that way and i think its right.

i am never obsessed with anything except for reading. playing, schooling, Tv and computers can't get the better of me. only reading. its the only thing in the entire world that can get me off the clock. i like writing too, and that's part of why am i blogging here.

my dad seemed unhappy when he sees me holding a book everywhere i went. i can see the unpleasant color on his face. but he din't show it. his tone while speaking to me gave him away anyway. i know my dad. and i know at once he is very annoyed.

my dad and mum knows that reading is my life. they always threaten to tear up my books and stop buying any for me in the future whenever i did something wrong. i always feel a stab of pain in my chest whenever i thought of no-more-reading for me. the feeling really sucks. i hate it. reading is my life.

dad, mum, if you really did come across this blog or more specifically those posts that contain my guilt. please, just for once more, forgive me for loosing control. i know you guys don't wanna see me like this. taking drugs. i will be in control of myself from now ( 5.47 pm of 18-March-2010 ) on. i will keep my promise to pull myself out of obsession to not just only books, but everything. please, i can do anything if you stop telling me that i would possibly get into the darkness of the no-more-reading. i fear my for that to happen. really, please don't take it away from me. i will suffer without books. and mum, please don't say that you'll tear my books when you're angry, i'd rather you tear me... please, stop saying that! please!

any guidance? ~

i need a guide, for my PPS. i kinda downloaded it to my laptop, everything was running perfectly. but there is one problem. the titles and options are all in symbols like -??- . no alphabets. i don't know what i am looking for if this goes on. can anyone provide me with a guide? i have already downloaded it a few times, but the thing is, it can't get cured..

aww man! ~

today, i woke up at about 10am to the ring and vibrates of my phone. haiz, it was my mum again, today, i tried to keep my voice and mood calm, cause i don't want the volcano to erupt again. things went well so far, and my mum had already asked Savy to heat a canned food, for my dish this morning with rice. it was edible.

after that, i did what i wanted to, every minute of my awake and slumber. i started reading. lolz, i think that's a really boring thing to talk about, since i have been talking about it for so many days. anyone out there who hates reading or the books, please forgive me! cause i really can't control myself, i seem to be thinking about it every time, no-matter what am i doing. i think about it when i am blogging - like now - , watching TV, playing with my two doggies, playing badminton with my cousin, dreaming and even breathing.

and erm, a little tip, i reread Twilight with the movie running on my TV in the hall, and read New Moon also with the movie. haha, i guess i am insane. but it's my habit, i can always generally watch TV while doing something else like reading, surfing the internet, doing schoolwork and etc.

i've been through this, many times. i always loose control over something ( books and movies ) or someone i admire ( public figures ). and i know what will happen in the end, i will kind of loose interest with it after some time and forget about it and go on to be crazy about something else ( if there is one ).

but books have been a tougher task for me, since reading is an activity that needs patience and attention. every word and scene ( my imaginary scenes ) will flash through my mind some time or other, disturbing me from concentrating on what i am doing or thinking.

yeah, i guess it's getting really boring now, about the book topic, i'll really try harder not to be so worked out about it. and i'd better get back to what i want to say.

so, today i invited my cousin, Germaine to come over to my house, to like urm play badminton or something like that. but sadly the wind was to strong today, so we went to my car porch, to play with my doggies.

then Ger wanted to get back home, to finish something, as she said. and wanted me to call her out in the evening. but sorry Ger, i was to distracted with the book that i forgot all about asking you!! please forgive me!

tonight, we had a peculiar dinner. my mum is obsessed with Steam Boat. and she wants to have it tonight. but i protested. and at last, we came up with the conclusion that i and my dad should eat rice with some dishes, while she herself have the who Boat to herself. it was weired, that our dining table was topped with a Steam Boat and a few dishes together with our rice and soup.

and after the dinner, my uncles and my granny asked us over to eat Durians. { wow, the English dictionary doesn't have this word } *shudders* .

and yeah, i guess i have not much more to say today, except for nightie night!

i am going back to reading! ~~ haha

and let me say once more:

MY HOLIDAY WILL NEVER BE BORING IF I HAVE BOOKS AROUND ME!!

50% not my day~

today i woke up a bit late, around quarter before 2pm. the reason for me waking up late is because i was again up reading my favorite book - Twilight until 3am. xD

this morning, i woke with a jump by the sound and vibrates of my hand phone. it was my mum. and her voice was piercing even through the microphone, statelite, and my speaker. my mum, is a fiery woman. anyone who hears her voice will shiver. her temper, like no one else, can shake walls and create earthquakes.

after the introducing about my mum, you guys should know how fierce is she. this morning, she scolded me through the phone, accusing me about waking late. my mood was kinda spoiled within the first few minutes after waking up.

after waking up, i did something i've been doing most of the time these three days - i started reading! and hahax, you should have guessed the title of my book by now. ( Twilight )

but lol, i wasn't moody for the rest of my day, as a bookworm, i was completely sucked into the book, and it was worth the effort. i finished Twilight today at about 4pm and proceeded to New Moon. i guess it will be finished within this week, which makes me sad by thinking about it. that means i'll have to start Breaking Dawn and skipping the entire Eclipse. i really hate that, i hate the feeling to skip any thing, especially books. i hate the feeling when i can't find the certain four books of The Saga Of Darren Shan. the feeling sucks. and i don' want the same thing to happen to my favorite book.

shit, dang damn it. i don't know when will be my next trip to the Popular Bookstore and get my missing book. dang it... ==''

condition & status today~

• tired

i was tired today cause, as i've said before, my parents bought me three books from The Twilight Saga, and you guys know how obsessed i am about it. yesterday night, i set off reading the very 1st book - Twilight. and holy crow, i slept at 5:30am, without my parents knowing of-course. they actually thought i was asleep at around 1:30am. this morning, i woke at about 10am++. my parents brought a guru, someone said to have special powers gifted by god, to come and comment or whatever about our house and other things like my schooling, my parents working and blah blah blah. and because i slept so late and woke so early, my whole day was a bit blurry. i had tuition class at 1pm, it was actually scheduled at 12:30pm but my tuition teacher has a nasty habit of coming late.

• happy / excited

my parents adopted a new female pup, generally to let my little Benjy to have a companion, and also letting them mate. they are both Shih Tzus. my Benjy, a quite stupid or you might say clumsy boy, couldn't seem to get on top of little Dingdong. yeah, Dingdong is my new pup's name. her previous owner named her that. anyway, i am sure Benjy will at last get on top and have a few new-born puppies, which i can name them whatever names i want. Dingdong is cute, slightly darker color than Benben, but she's still as adorable as ever! my benben is a little different from other dogs. he's a 100% pure Shih Tzu but with a pinky nose. the vet said that pink-nosed pups are not allowed to participate in competitions. they say that pink-nosed pups are a little no qualified. but, for me, my little benben's pinky nose is the most special part of him, and, i think if he doesn't have that birthmark, he won't be so handsome! his pink nose absolutely fits with his fur!!

yay! The Twilight Saga!!~

i'm a bookworm, as told before. i love books, storybooks, especially centered in Vampires. i love The Saga of Darren Shan, The Twilight Saga and etc. these two books are my favorite of all times. they even overcome my last favorite - Harry Porter. now, i am a freak for Twilight. The Twilight Saga is so popular now that no one doesn't know about it. the author is Stephanie Meyer. she's completely my idol.

actually i started by watching the movie based on it starred by Robert Pattinson and Kristen Steward. they made a great pair, and i absolutely love Edward and Bella. Rob and Kristen are so perfect for these two characters.

then, a few of my friends told me that the book was more detailed and interesting. so, i bugged my dad and mum to buy me the whole series. and at last, finally, as i wished, they bought them for me. but there was no stock for Eclipse, so i'd only bought Twilight, New Moon and Breaking Dawn. Stephanie Meyer is working on a new collection, Midnight Sun which continues the incredibly interesting romance of Bella and Edward.

in the movie, Edward was a curious boy, attracted by Bella, while Bella was attracted by Edward's handsome and flawless figure. Edward was cool and quiet in the movie, always trying to avoid Bella but at last failed.

in the book, Edward was more aggressive, a bit friendlier than in the movie. Bella was attracted by Edward all the same.

i love the movie, and the book still. i am really eager to see the new filmed Eclipse to be broadcasted over the world in June 30th this year. i can't even wait for the stock to arrive for Eclipse the book.

omg, anyone who has not read and watched it, better do it now, before you regret.

my F***ing teacher ~

she is my Art Teacher. she wanted me to hand up my Note Book the next day on a certain Tuesday in February cause i have't finish my notes the previous week. ok, i finished it before my recess that day. i brought it upstairs to her office. she said she don't wanna accept it because i din't put some creative colors. so, i went downstairs to my class and borrowed a set of color pencils from my friend - Sim Yeen. after touching up, i brought my book up again. this time, she accepted it, and i am making it clear here, that i passed my book to her personally. and on the past Thursday, i got a message from her, saying that she wants my Note Book on Friday ( March ). i was shocked. my book IS with her. and now, she wants me to hand it up.

yesterday, i went to her office and asked her about my book. she said she din't receive my book. but i am very sure it is with her. ok, then never mind. she wants me to reproduce a new Note Book. and because she wants to collect the Note Books to give us marks for our Art. then i asked her, can she give me some time to redo it, and then only let her give marks. she said: "no. today's the last day for marks giving. your book wasn't wrapped with a present paper, as you've told me, and i want a nice book. there's a boy from your class who din't wrap his book, like you. i will give you the same marks i gave him." i din't know what to say, so i said "ok". then, i flipped his book, and found out that his book was absolutely ugly. without colors, nice drawings and most of the notes are photo-stats. and, obviously, any teacher, even the most generous one will not give him high marks. my book was only unwrapped. the contents are a 100 times nicer than his. and i thought: if my book was given marks like him, just because i din't wrap, it is ridiculous.

i told my parents about this when i got back home. they are very angry about this. my dad is going to fetch me to school, demand that it is not fair that my marks are to depend on another classmate's book. that F***ing teacher, Puan Atina, will never get any respect from me, ever. i hate her.

P. Atina, awak yang menghilangkan buku aku, sekarang, awak nak bagi markah yang tidak baik, salah dan dengan cuai.

awak tiada kelayakan untuk menjadi cikgu saya, tiada kelayakan untuk juga menjadi seorang cikgu.

you are not qualified to be my teacher, not qualified to be a teacher. you, are irresponsible, and responsibility is the first rule that a teacher must follow.

Exams for So Many pupils!~

as i've said before, its our exam week. the next few subjects for me to endure tomorrow and on Friday are KH, Geography, Sivik and Science. and after those? holiday for 1 week. which is not what i really want. through the exam papers before, i found out that my results and studies have worsen. i think i haven't get the tactic for my Ringkasan Karangan. it was limited for 80 words. and i did until 123 words. i presume i will knock off a few marks for that.

i saw today on my cousin's blog saying that she had an English test and got A for it. i feel so happy for her! congratulations Ger! a good start means that you are halfway to victory! Ger, you are a genius! and C.gratz again!!!! i love you~ ^_^

and as for my English today, i did not do very well too. it was my essay. they limited us with two paragraphs but i am so blur that i wrote 4 paragraphs. oh man, i think i will also get marks knocked off for this. and if it knocked enough marks for me to get a B grade in my English, i will be dead meat. OMG, i am so sad.. but i can promise that i can get my good grades and get back to my standard the next exam. this? i'll treat this like a secondary settlement, just to get me used to secondary exam question styles.

but i am still very scared, i think i can't accept the fact that i am worsening. my dad and mum has high hopes in me, especially when i'm their only child.

i am really scared. what should i do? --> but don't tell me those things like study hard, pay attention, etc. i know those already lar..

oh, sorry guys, if i was a little emotional and bad tempered, i think i was abit unhappy. please forgive me!

my stupid maid II~

my parents use to keep coins and some small amounts of notes like RM1 in a cupboard for my maid to stock up some bread everyday when the motor-bread-seller comes by our house. my dad thought her to buy a RM2.30 bread with 4 x 50cents + 1 x 20cents + 1 x 10cents. today, when i came home from school, she came and said: " x'cuse me Yani, money no enough buy roti. " showing me 2 x 50cents + 1 x 20cents + 1 x 10cents. i spilled my wallet and found an RM1 note and gave it to her. and guess what she told me, she said my note cant buy the bread. she needs another 2 x 50cents. and then i went to the cupboard, and found out that it was pilled with coins and notes. and then i know she ran out of 50cents, that's why she said money not enough. urrgh... i don't know when can i get to show this girl how to count money or any other thing she doesn't know. i've spent hours teaching her the coins. she learn't them, but she doesn't even know

RM0.20+RM0.1o=_?_

she is real real real real stupid.

my doggie - the story II~

they ( my parents and my uncle ) brought our cute pups for a monthly health treatment on saturday. my cute benjy went too. the doctor said that they require a pill, one for each of them.

my doggie was the ~( i don't know, i din't go.) to have the pill.

when it was his turn, the doctor quickly put the tablet into his mouth and professionally shut his mouth up and kind of pushed his throat a little, so that the pill would go down my doggie's little throat. after the doctor think it has gone down, he turned his back on benjy. suddenly, my benben spit the tablet out, he din't swallow it. he kept it under his tongue until the doctor left him alone. when he did that, i heard that the room roared with laughter. the doctor said that it was his first encounter with a smart dog who keeps its tablet in its mouth without swallowing it.

i was laughing until tears roll down my cheeks and my stomach muscles were aching. i'd always knew my benjy is a cute little fella, but this story really cheers me up whenever i think about it!!~

exam week~

it's the 1st exam week for SMK Taman Tasik. i am having my exams. firstly, i wanna say that secondary is a very big change. the questions of my exams are harder than before. like the Ringkasan Karangan. it is limited for 70 words but i did 123 words today. i think i will have a few marks deducted for over-writing.

Seni was not too well for me. my teacher told us the wrong revision topic, and most of us din't know what to do. i know only half of the questions.

i will be taking my English, maths and history exam tomorrow. i think i will be alright in maths and english. while i am not too sure about my history. i am quite weak in it.

on Thursday, i will have more exams like KH and such. i don't think i am doing well this term but i still have to go through this. everyone goes through this. holly shit, i am damned.

hahax.. i look so..... xD~

here's the funny outfit my school wants me to wear on stage.

today, i was informed that i had to get back to my primary school - SJK(C) Kg. Baru Ampang to get the prize money according to the UPSR results.

funny thing part 1:

i was told to go but not told that i should wear my uniform. i had my T-shirt and my jeans on and went there. Sin Ming took my car there. she wore her uniform. i asked her: is it necessary? she said she saw it in the paper sent to a classmate of hers showing that we should wear our uniforms. but never mind, my dad says that they will still let me go without my uniform.

when i reached, the teacher wanted me to wear my uniform urgently. she says it's because casuals are not striking enough. so my dad and mum drove me home to change.

funny thing part 2:

my handphone has some problems with the energy storage. it uses up all my battery when i have a phone call. when i called my mum, it was drained. my dad accused me for not charging it. stupid phone. i don't wanna use one again, if i'll get accused like that.

so my dad let me use a spare phone that he kept. it's the one he uses when he's on a company trip overseas. i changed the sim card and you guess what... i left it in the car. got another scolding from my dad, saying that i am careless, blah blah blah....

funny thing part 3:

i have already confirmed with Sin Ming that i'll take her car back home yesterday night. she clearly said alright. today, we 7 As holders are the last to be on stage. when i came down, my friend said she's gone. so my dad said maybe i'd walk out first and see if i can meet her at the gate. i saw her walking along with a party of friends, and din't even think about the promise.

a friend with her saw me and asked me to come together to the lunch they planned at the Mc Donald. i was stunned. i never even know about the lunch and they said that Sin Ming is going straight away. i was thinking, i need to go home, NOW cause i have a tuition class to attend.

i called her, and found that she THOUGHT that i am taking my dad's car back. but i really did confirmed with her that i AM taking her car back. she excused: "your mum said she is sending you home." i said: "really? i din't know about it." she said again: "erm, ( =.=! ) i mean my mum thought you are following your parents. so she doesn't care less about me. ( all in chinese )

conclusion:

well, not to say that i am rumoring here, but it's only what i think about them ( sometimes ).

~maybe a little irresponsible

• like i said, she din't take the responsibility to ask me about my transportation home.
• and my dad has to send me home because i can't follow her to lunch, cause i have tuition. and result for my dad sending me home? he was late for his next appointment.

~a little takes things for granted

• always asking others to do favors like fetching her children here and there.

~not confirmed about things that concerned

• she is always blur about what she does and did.
• never sure about anything

erm Sin Ming, i am not blackening, and i do not accuse you. but as a friend, i really hope you can improve after seeing this, if you don't read it, it's ok, i'll just leave it here, until one day you'll really look at this, properly.